We wish for the growth, for the resources. We wish to be at the top of our game, this game called Life. We are tryin to get there, to a new phase, to a different reality. Although I remember wishing once for the reality I have today. I wished to be here, to live here and now I lack something else.
Does we reach to the point where we just feel complete without trying ? I’m afraid no!
There is a stillness to life which I feel scared to accept sometimes. What if I like it more than I should? We are slow learners, life gives us time with every new day after day . We procrastinate, & meanwhile the compass moves, our focus shifts to smaller tiny things. That's the beauty of tiny things. They make us & then they take everything away from us. We build (at least we try) the same thing like everybody else & yet expect something different, we expect the freedom to sit back & relax & watch the Sun go up and down & really feel the time passing. We think we are doing what one is supposed to do when it's alive? But what if our own mind is playing with us? We can never break the boundaries we set for ourselves. And no matter how many logical reasons we have that shows us as practical or responsible, we are trapped by our own mind, & yet it tells us that we are free and we believe it... Nobody teaches us to be us. Not school, not college, not job. It makes us capable enough to communicate, reason & feed ourselves! One phase of life ends and we enter a new one, we adapt. We try to be our true versions, we try to find ourselves in each new phase & yet when one thing doesn't go our way, I feel lost. We have all our happy memories in a bundle in our minds & I can feel more such tiny memories adding to it whenever I am living a new happy loving shared experience in the present time. My mind tells me then - Its present now, be here, this will all be in the past tomorrow or after an hour for that matter. We want to be best, we want to be different, we want & want. We want money and careers today. We want a family of our own. We want a smiling picture perfect life. Every new day combined makes this life so grateful to be breathing, to have people & to share love and affection with them. We make innumerable connections unknowingly & without even trying in this life, when most of our efforts go into our daily activities. Life by default has given us what we need to be alive, we just can't see it all the time!